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19:15 Aug 31 2013 Times Read: 1,784
I am taking my mom out to the movies, we're going to go see The World's End. She enjoys Simon Pegg, so I hope she'll enjoy this one. Then I think we'll go out for some lunch. It is so nice to have the car for the whole weekend while my dad is up camping with the Young Marines in the mountains.
22:05 Aug 30 2013 Times Read: 1,768
There is a kitty sleeping in my lap. It's cute, and just a little out of the ordinary. Aphrodite doesn't usually like being held and sitting in my lap for any amount of time, let alone relaxing enough to fall asleep.
15:07 Aug 30 2013 Times Read: 1,838
wow such a wonderful soon to be admin.....your job is to uphold vr rules and tos...not let lord dipshit run amok
The fact you attempt to even insinuate that I don't do my job as an Acolyte is rich. It really is. I have been an Acolyte for five years, a Dominar for one, so I think it's safe to say I do what I am required, and I always have. There is a difference between upholding the site's ToS and then going along with your absolute bullshit. The fact that I don't want to involve myself with you in any fashion doesn't mean I don't do what I am expected to do. As I said in that response to you, I have been part of the Admin team in some fashion since before you were a member here. And, hey, I got that title all on my own, no one had to take the test for me.
I didn't want to have to resort to a public entry like this, but the fact that you keep sending me stupid messages, trying to stir up drama is getting on my nerves. I do not block people, but I am really considering making an exception just for you. Like is said, try and be the better person and let things go. Just try it for once. I know that's asking a hell of a lot from you, but you never know.
14:16 Aug 30 2013 Times Read: 1,839
Since I couldn't sleep, I decided to change things up on my phone. I took off all the idols I had as my backgrounds, instead replaced them with pretty pictures I found on deviantART of areas of Seoul. I think it looks pretty. And I think it's time to switch out my notification sound and my ringtone. Though, I may keep my ringtone, as it is the chorus to monster by Big Bang.
12:28 Aug 30 2013 Times Read: 1,848
It's half past four and I am still awake. And my cat, Aphrodite, has taken over my pillow. She looks up at me every so often like, "yo, I am a cat." And I am just like, "yes, yes you are." Then she puts her head down and goes back to sleep. It's weird. And I am too wide awake right now. Sleep, why must your forsake me? Wae?!
I want sushi... And George. And George's delicious liquor.
But mostly just George.
And some spicy tuna rolls.
But still, mostly just George.
Yeah...
I don't even know.
Now Aphrodite is purring in my left ear, like a creeper.
Awkward.
06:36 Aug 30 2013 Times Read: 1,873
Woot! I passed the Acolyte on this account and I shall have it back once Cancer sets that up. Man, I am so glad, I've missed having the position on this account.
21:51 Aug 29 2013 Times Read: 1,889
I think I may just be a little too old to do the whole getting drunk out of my mind thing with Tommy. I don't quite recover like I used to. It was fun, and I really missed hanging out with that boy, but the drinking kills me. Still no hangovers, but I am not really completely on the ball today.
I do want to go back to Genki with him though. That place is amazing.I mean, it's just a sushi bar, but damn, the people make it awesome. The servers all know Tommy by name, and they stop your bill at two hundred dollars, if you buy enough liquor, which is, as I found out, seriously easy to do. And the servers and sushi chefs will drink with you. We dropped a few saki bombs last night, one with one of the chefs. Then when George brewed his soju yummyness we had a good amount of shots with him, and with the other sushi chef. Though, I don't think he liked it quite as much as the rest of us. And the K-Pop on the television. Yeah, I felt like Genki was my home.
06:36 Aug 29 2013 Times Read: 1,911
I am pretty sure I am beyond drunk at this point. Me and Tommy went for sushi at his favorite hangout and three saki bombs later we were ordering this concoction our prettyful server George made with soju and other stuff. It was so fucking delicious. I am only spelling as good as I am because my keyboard's spellchecker. Others wishes this would be riddled with errors. And, the place we went to was owned by Koreans so they had Kpop on the tvs. And, Tommy and I bonded over Monster by Big Bang. It was an amazing night.
US I won sixteen dollars on this scratcher thing Tommy bought me. So, fuck yeah.
00:57 Aug 29 2013 Times Read: 1,920
Tommy just called, wants to take me out for some sushi. I am so glad I feel loads better today. So, it should be fun. We haven't hung out just the two of us in years. I've missed my best friend.
01:43 Aug 28 2013 Times Read: 1,928
Well, so much for that headache being gone. Now my whole freaking head is radiating pain. I think I am just gonna lay down and sleep until next week.
21:56 Aug 27 2013 Times Read: 1,939
I have been pretty sick these last couple of days. Much to the point where I couldn't even get out of bed without feeling like I was going to collapse. I am feeling a tad bit better today. Only issue is that I can't talk, as my throat is sore. And I can't stop sneezing. But, that headache is gone, thank goodness.
Anyway that is why I haven't really been around much these last handful of days. Not that many of you probably noticed... But yeah, hopefully I will be back to relative normality by tomorrow.
01:34 Aug 27 2013 Times Read: 1,950
Where do you go?
When those darker wild eyes show,
If I lead you straight up to,
The loneliest landscape you knew,
Boy would you care,
If you lost me there?
04:41 Aug 26 2013 Times Read: 1,973
Mistakes
It's too much to discuss sobre, I know
Just why you think,
That you need an anaesthatised mouth to
Say all those bladed things,
Ooh,
Need you like I need a headache,
Need you like I need my mistakes, right here,
Ooh,
Need you like I need a downpour,
I don't need you but I need so much more,
Right here
It's too much to discuss lovers I know,
How much you've lied,
It's too much to discuss numbers,
I know, how much I've let slide...
Ooh,
Need you like I need a headache,
Need you like I need my mistakes, right here,
Ooh,
Need you like I need a downpour,
I don't need you but I need so much more,
Right here
Time is always, harder on the quiet days,
Brings back up that old sacrifice,
You cost me more than I ever knew before,
And looking back I can not deny
Ooh,
Need you like I need a headache,
Need you like I need my mistakes, right here,
Ooh,
Need you like I need a downpour,
I don't need you but I need so much more,
Right here.
Ooh,
Need you like I need a headache,
Need you like I need my mistakes, right here,
Ooh,
Need you like I need a downpour,
I don't need you but I need so much more,
Right here.
04:29 Aug 25 2013 Times Read: 1,990
I was tempted to call Nick and invite him out to see The World's End with me, but screw that. I need to get some sleep. Maybe tomorrow, if he has the time.
03:00 Aug 25 2013 Times Read: 2,001
Got home about an hour ago, and I am absolutely exhausted. It's always draining to see my mom's family. I did get to hold my baby cousin, Landon. He is so adorable and tiny. I don't think I have ever held a child that young before, so it was interesting. So fragile and dependent on others. He was beautiful, though. Absolutely beautiful. I also got to see my older second cousins, Haley and Eric, who are my cousin Andrew's children, and Joseph and Johnny, who are my cousin Chris' two sons. Technically only Joseph is related to me, Johnny is Chris' wife's son. But yeah, it was nice to see some of my family. Though, I didn't participate much at the shower, I am not a big fan of baby showers, so I spent more time talking with Andrew and his girlfriend, Heather. I found out some pretty disturbing things about my aunt Stacy, and about my Nana. Things I am not at all happy to hear about.
18:48 Aug 24 2013 Times Read: 2,021
I have my little cousin Brenna's baby shower today, and really, I haven't gotten enough sleep to take on my mom's side of the family. But, I am excited to see and hold my newest baby cousin, Landon. I have only seen pictures of him since his birth on the seventh. It should prove to be a fun day, even with my lack of sleep. I always love seeing my family.
12:33 Aug 24 2013 Times Read: 2,056
Fuck if I am ever going to be able to believe anything anyone here tells me. After all this, I am going to be plagued with constant doubt about everything. Like I don't already have major trust issues...
Is it really too much to expect some honesty? Can't people just be open and honest with me? I am never anything but honest with them. Guess I should rethink the way I handle myself. Maybe being guarded and distant is the way to go around here.
PRIVATE ENTRY 11:52 Aug 24 2013 Times Read: 2,061
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01:24 Aug 24 2013 Times Read: 2,106
I wasn't going to write anything. And then I was. But now I just don't know what to say about any of it. Aside from the fact that it hurts to be lied to like that. If you care about a person, have the decency to be upfront and honest with them. Even the harshest truth is better than a pretty lie.
PRIVATE ENTRY 10:24 Aug 23 2013 Times Read: 2,127
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23:56 Aug 22 2013 Times Read: 2,162
I don't like not being able to trust someone when they tell me that they care about me. That I am the only one they want. I don't like that little voice in the back of my mind telling me that they are full of shit, that they are lying, that I'm nothing special to them. I also dislike being kept a secret. It makes me feel like there are other reasons for such. Yes, I understand you don't want people to know all your business, however, looking at it from another vantage point, some might say "why?" Why are you hiding it?
It all boils down to trust, which I have very little of for most people. I can count on one hand the people I trust completely, or, as completely as I am able. I feel as though I'm being played the fool. Again. I'm so tired of finding out I have been lied to, I have been played. I am not a toy.
Just give me something real.
08:07 Aug 21 2013 Times Read: 2,192
Done.
21:56 Aug 20 2013 Times Read: 2,207
The service was really nice. He had TAPS played, a rifle salute, and a whole bunch of Marines in Dress Blues. It was lovely. And now I am hanging out with Tommy and his brothers at the reception. It's been too long since I have seen these guys, and it's sad that this is how we got to meet up. I have missed my Tommy.
Also, this place is right on the beach in San Pedro, and it is beautiful here.
02:42 Aug 20 2013 Times Read: 2,231
Joshua's funeral is tomorrow. My dad and I are going to go, as he was in my recruit class in Young Marines. I can't believe he's really gone, and over something so stupid. Tomorrow is going to suck.
17:10 Aug 19 2013 Times Read: 2,243
So, I have this really pretty shade of metallic blue Essie nail polish that I absolutely adore. And I just realized it matches with the blue of my phone. It's all about accessorizing. The inner girly-girl should be proud.
19:08 Aug 18 2013 Times Read: 2,292
Well, fuck... If that isn't just disappointing. Satisfying, but still somewhat disappointing.
05:37 Aug 18 2013 Times Read: 2,318
Ha. Some kismets can be rather amusing.
08:46 Aug 17 2013 Times Read: 2,347
I could be your love,
And you could be my hope.
01:40 Aug 17 2013 Times Read: 2,357
I can't wait to see The World's End. I loves me some Simon Pegg. Oh yes, yes I do.
23:32 Aug 16 2013 Times Read: 2,372
Green tea with jasmine and a rice cake, it's the simple things that make my whole world better.
22:46 Aug 16 2013 Times Read: 2,379
I'm watching Ever After: A Cinderella Story with Drew Barrymore. I love this movie so very much. It's mostly because of the costumes. I mean, the story is quite nice as well, but those dresses... Yeah, they are absolutely lovely. If only I had the money for some true to the period renaissance and Elizabethan clothing, I would be one happy Immy.
07:30 Aug 15 2013 Times Read: 2,400
I just found out a person I was in the Young Marines with was killed last Tuesday in Old Town Pasadena. He was struck in the head and went down and hit the concrete, the police and EMTs found him in the middle of Colorado Blvd.
I've been to a lot of funerals for people I was in the program with, but usually they were killed over seas. This is the first one where it happened at home. I hope the fuckers who killed him get the worst the legal system can throw at them.
PRIVATE ENTRY 00:26 Aug 15 2013 Times Read: 2,419
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09:40 Aug 14 2013 Times Read: 2,451
Sometimes I wonder if anything you say is real or if I am just too naive to know any better, just a toy. One of many.
I am so horrible when it comes to trust, because so many have lied to me in the past. It's hard to know what is real anymore. I want to believe, but I don't want to be played the fool.
09:20 Aug 14 2013 Times Read: 2,457
"What power would hell have if those imprisoned here would not be able to dream of heaven?"
― Neil Gaiman, The Sandman, Vol. 1: Preludes and Nocturnes
I still want to see Heaven happen. It's not likely to ever come about, but I would love to see it.
04:20 Aug 13 2013 Times Read: 2,515
Man, sometimes people just absolutely ruin my Crests. Makes me question doing anything for anyone anymore.
PRIVATE ENTRY 02:17 Aug 13 2013 Times Read: 2,526
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19:49 Aug 12 2013 Times Read: 2,542
Just got back from visiting David. I left him some beautiful roses and carnations and a big sunflower. I also visited my great grandmother, my great grandfather, Ralph, and my great uncle that I never got to meet. It was nice, and it made me feel closer to my family. I miss them all so much.
23:00 Aug 11 2013 Times Read: 2,561
Hit the salon at Ulta, got my hair all did and purdy again. There's no drastic change, just a trim and I got my hair redyed this lovely shade of red. Then my mom and I went for sushi. It was yummy. All-in-all it was a nice day.
06:37 Aug 11 2013 Times Read: 2,582
I just got home from my birthday dinner with the family. It was nice, just my parents, my brother and I. Liz went out with her mom, so we were denied her company. But even sans my sister-in-law, it was really nice. After dinner we had some cake.
I had a good birthday. Talked to an amazing person most of the day, awesome dinner with my family, lots of birthday messages. It was good. I'm not into the partying or the drinking or the going out and all that. I never have been. So a quiet day and a nice dinner is all I really need.
I am going to visit David's grave on Monday, since I'll have the car. I hate that I couldn't do it today, but, that's the way it goes sometimes. So long as I get out there Monday it'll be alright.
08:18 Aug 10 2013 Times Read: 2,614
Gah, I'm old now!
And, thank you to all those who've already wished me a happy birthday. So many messages to respond to already. It's crazy and it makes me feel so loved. :]
00:43 Aug 10 2013 Times Read: 2,634
I got my first "happy birthday." And, while I still have a good seven and some odd hours to go before midnight here, I can forgive it. He's in England, so technically it was August 10th there. Plus, he's adorable, so yeah, totally forgiven.
I don't want to get old! Can I just stop right now? I really do not need to be twenty-six.
11:05 Aug 08 2013 Times Read: 2,669
Oh my god, new pictures! I look silly.
07:18 Aug 08 2013 Times Read: 2,685
I had to paint my nails tonight. I hate seeing them bare for so long. So, I picked Essie's Wrapped in Rubies. It's not the most summery color I have, but I absolutely love it. I actually need to get a new bottle soon, since I've nearly used it all up.
The image is not mine.
22:39 Aug 07 2013 Times Read: 2,698
You know, it already passed, the day he died. And, though my birthday is only a few days away, I don't feel half as bad as I tend to around this time of the year. I've had a number of people keeping me distracted lately, and keeping me from spending too much time alone with my thoughts. And for that, I am so very thankful to them. When I'm alone, I tend to think, and when I think I tend to dwell on the bad, all that negative. I would be far more withdrawn right now if it wasn't for the constant conversations. I miss David, insanely. But, it's not as bad as it used to be.
Also, my little cousin, Brenna, had her baby this morning. He's beautiful.
10:20 Aug 07 2013 Times Read: 2,724
Read that story NeverMind sent me. Read it and the blogs and the AIM chatlog, and petty much every link I could find associated with it. It was disturbing. But awesome. But seriously disturbing.
Note to self: Don't read creepy stuff in the dark in the middle of the night. My imagination runs away with the ideas.
16:54 Aug 06 2013 Times Read: 2,762
And here I thought you could not possibly get any more stupid and ridiculous than you already were. Thank you for proving how wrong I was with that.
16:37 Aug 06 2013 Times Read: 2,766
I have really got to start getting myself to bed at a decent hour.
You know, I say that now, but I really know that I will be up until three or four in the morning, talking to him. Sleep seems to never factor in until I just can't keep my eyes open any longer. Then I wake upat seven, eight, and I just want to shoot myself.
It's that time difference. The eight hours is killer.
23:05 Aug 05 2013 Times Read: 2,781
I watched Devil today. It was on HBOGO and I was bored. I had had the ending ruined for me a long time ago, but back then I never figured I would watch it, so I didn't care. I don't know why I watch M. Night Shamalamadingdong's movies anymore. Every film he has done after The Sixth Sense hasn't been very good. This one was no different. Unbreakable and The Sixth Sense. Those were his only good ones.
Also, I finally got my hands on Daft Punk's recent album, Random Access Memories. And oh my god! I am in love with it. I hadn't heard it all the way through before, just a song here or there. But damn, I am in love. I think it's got to be one of their better albums. It's got that amazing '70s disco feel to the songs, and it is just amazing. AMAZING. I am so glad I bought it.
16:14 Aug 05 2013 Times Read: 2,787
Got to sleep far too late, got up far too early.
Today is going to suck.
03:47 Aug 05 2013 Times Read: 2,803
Man, I hate that eight hour time difference.
01:09 Aug 05 2013 Times Read: 2,818
I heard Poor Unfortunate Souls on my mom's tablet as she was listening to Pandora, and now I have to watch The Little Mermaid. I freaking love this film. This and Beauty and the Beast are my absolute favorite Disney animated films. This was actually the first Disney movie I ever saw, when I was two.
21:47 Aug 04 2013 Times Read: 2,828
Wow, Peter Capaldi. I never would have guessed that one.
21:17 Aug 04 2013 Times Read: 2,837
I overslept, by a lot... Thank goodness I recorded the Doctor Who reveal of the new Doctor. Off to go watch that before I do anything else on the internet and have it all ruined for me.
PRIVATE ENTRY 06:08 Aug 04 2013 Times Read: 2,852
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03:34 Aug 04 2013 Times Read: 2,878
I swear, I am like a magnet for these things. And that annoys me. And the reasoning behind it annoys me even more. Fuck that noise.
I am not your pawn, your toy, someone you can manipulate. I may be horribly naive sometimes, but I learn quickly.
23:28 Aug 03 2013 Times Read: 2,905
So, we get the option to hid Honor Comments now? Cancer, I have to say it, I love you.
20:48 Aug 03 2013 Times Read: 2,944
Since it will never happen, I suppose I can share this now. Meh. It would have been interesting, but oh well.
19:22 Aug 03 2013 Times Read: 2,960
You know, that really didn't surprise me... It sucks to hear, but it isn't that surprising now that I think about it and piece things together. Oh well. We didn't associate this time around, so it doesn't really bother me.
19:46 Aug 02 2013 Times Read: 2,989
Oh man. I just made this super awesome Crest for someone's upcoming Coven, and I want to post it here for everyone to see. But I can't! It's horrible. I want to share it, but I need to hear back from someone first to make sure there aren't going to be any issues. But just you wait. I think it's awesome and it will tie in with another Coven so amazingly.
08:11 Aug 02 2013 Times Read: 3,017
And... Take two. Someone suggested golds, and I ran with it.
Also, that awkward moment when you're asked to create a Crest, Mark, and Rep for a Coven you already submitted once. The Coven of Kings... It was pretty funny to think that people believe themselves so creative and unique. They actually wanted everything pretty close to what I had already created years ago.
06:45 Aug 02 2013 Times Read: 3,031
I'm unsure about this. I like it, but I don't. It seems too busy to me, but I love the colors.
05:08 Aug 02 2013 Times Read: 3,035
My new pet project: Enlightenment.
en·light·en·ment
/enˈlītnmənt/
Noun
- The action of enlightening or the state of being enlightened.
- The attainment of spiritual knowledge or insight, esp. (in Buddhism) that which frees a person from the cycle of rebirth.
02:01 Aug 02 2013 Times Read: 3,041
I made some minor alterations to my profile. It's nothing you'll really notice, but I know. That's all that matters in the end.
00:05 Aug 02 2013 Times Read: 3,049
The beginning of August is always bad for me. There are two days within days the first 10 days that I do not look forward to. My birthday, which is a double whammy, and the date of my cousin David's death. So, if I am less than social, or short with you, do forgive me. This month puts me in a rather unfriendly mood.
06:44 Aug 01 2013 Times Read: 2,760
I had a dream about you. We were together, finally, and we were happy. It was heartbreaking, because I know it'll never be a reality.
I guess I miss you far more than I thought.
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